A ghost from the past

„The relationship was now over. He set off his way, and she continued her own way too. Two different paths with no meeting point.

Many years passed, many things that she lived, many people that she met, many changes that she had, and she thought that it was all over, and it did not affect her in any way. She still did not receive an explanation for everything that happened, but she no longer needed it, or so she thought. She had moved on.

She had met people, dated men, enjoyed her life, and tried to remember only the nice memories. She didn’t want to hate him, because she knew it would affect her life. Slowly, with the years, the bad things faded away. She wanted to be happy.

Shortly after they broke up, she made sure he was okay and decided for herself that she did not want to have any contact with him. After everything that happened, after moving to another country for him and finding out that he cheated on her, she had enough. She accepted more than she was supposed to accept.

She decided that enough was enough and now was the time to think of herself first. She decided that the end is the end, and that she should leave all the past behind to focus on herself and be able, at some point, to enjoy the future. She was left with many emotional scars from that relationship.

She would have liked to hear from him why he behaved that way. She would have liked him to apologize. She would have liked to get a proper explanation of why things happened the way they happened. She will never get answers to that. Or so she thought.

Even if she never received those answers to her questions, she managed to be happy. She managed to work through the problems and issues she had with herself and improve. She managed to overcome adversity and heal. She managed to trust men again and although she did not start another relationship, she was ready to be with someone together when that right person came along. She has come a long way since then and was happy with where she was.

More than 7 years passed and almost everything was forgotten. He followed his path, far away from her, and she followed hers and tried not to fall out of it. But the past can always come back to haunt you and also the people who were, in some moment, part of your past can always come back to you.

The message she unconsciously waited for, have finally arrived. He contacted her on social media. They had a small talk and exchange phone numbers. They were hundreds and hundreds of miles apart.

The talk did not continue.

Once you get in contact with someone from your past, it is impossible not to start thinking more and more about it. You start having flashbacks, the memories come back to you as well as the ghost that you tried so hard to forget. Is something that our mind does automatically. She was sure now that, in the past, she made the right decision. She was not regretting anything. The respect for a person who helped you develop your personality and cared for you in one way or another was still there, but nothing more. She felt relieved.

A few months passed and with a simple conversation they touched on that topic. And the unexpected happened: she received the apology that she had waited for many years, although she did not want to acknowledge it even towards her.

This will not change anything about the current situation between them, they were just two people who at some point in their life they shared that: their life, they had a life together. And all that was over a long time ago, and she did not want it back.

She felt happy because now she really felt that it was the final closure. She knew she had offer more than she was supposed to offer, and to receive that confirmation from his side only made her feel prouder, how she handled the whole situation and how she carried herself.

She could now take a deep breath and get rid of that unconscious weight that sometimes felt like carrying it on the way, now she could breathe fresh air and smile to herself, now she was convinced that she had no regrets.”

I am here right now, under my umbrella, listening to the falling rain as my thoughts too. And, through the dark street, abandoned by this time, I find my way and manage to put my thoughts in order.

People run away from this weather, in their comfortable houses, with their families, because outside is neither warm nor welcoming, as people run away from their own thoughts because not all are so pleasant and some of them make you come out from your comfort zone or they simply scare you. You can see in the little light from the corner of the street the shadows that haunt you like thoughts and people also haunt from your past.

And until you see, at the end of the street, where you reached a more central point and suddenly it fills with light and fills with people, and someone sings a love song dancing to their rhythm, where you notice that on every corner something beautiful may appear, but you just need to be ready to see it and enjoy it. You should also embrace that shadow of your past, take care of it, and release it when you feel that the right moment has come.

When the rain starts and the sky turn gray our mood changes, and we can no longer see the sun. The same when a relationship ends, and the person goes away from our life, and you are left alone, we do not see any color anymore. What we always forget is that after every rainy day, at some point in this world, a rainbow arises and brings and fills everything again with color, and in every corner, something beautiful might be hidden and that there is always a light at the end of the way.

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Version in Spanish: https://journeywithmada.com/historia-nr-19/

Version in Romanian: https://journeywithmada.com/povestea-nr-19/